- What is health induced anxiety/depression?
- Do you have to have a serious event/trauma happen to have health induced anxiety/depression?
- Tools that you can use to help?
- My book recommendation to start with.
- How triggers affect your health.
Lets face it, having health issues really sucks. Having chronic (which by definition is longer than 6 months) is hard enough but than couple that with the fact that maybe you have children, a job, errands to run, family to take care off and it is really only a matter of time before your mental health takes a beating as well.
What is health induced anxiety and depression?
When my daughter was born she almost died. Actually, she was pronounced deceased and brought back. To give you an idea of just how bad it was, she lost 96% of her blood, had 2 transfusion and was pronounced deceased. It wasn’t until after an intern asked if he could inject her heart with epinephrine did her heart beat again.
That was what saved her life and I will FOREVER be grateful to that intern. It was also the moment when I realized never underestimate the new guy, even when they are just learning they may have something life saving to offer.
She was “chilled” as they called it on a cooling bed for 72 hours after her heart started back up. I got to see her when I was just waking up briefly as they took her over to cheo, but the first time I really got to see her she was while being chilled.
Chilled is what I felt… My insides felt like they immediately froze and I lost all sense of time as I sat in the wheelchair staring at my baby, naked and screaming from the pain of laying on an ice cold bed. The concept they tried to explain being that if they could cool her system, the inflammation would stay low in her organs.
All I could do was star as they tried to makes sense of what I was seeing.
I was put under a general anesthetic but in the midst of the chaos they forget to freeze me and so when I woke up, I experienced horrific pain. Between seeing my baby, not sure if she would survive the night and the pain I was feeling; everything inside me broke.
That was the only way that I could describe it.
As time went on and she and I healed, I became invested in health and I began to study what happened to me.
Not the symptoms nor the specifics of the event but rather what happened to me that day inwardly. I had a lot of health issues prior, I understood medical terms that they were throwing around, I had suffered pain and surgery before but something happened that I couldn’t explain.
The moment when all the feelings became numb, I couldn’t find enough air, I felt all the nerves in my body tingle at the same time. I wanted to know what happened to me in those moments.
I escaped into learning about the nervous system and the effects it has on the mind/body. As a result, I have become more and more convinced that this is infact where chronic issues are stemming from.
Not everyone has to have a serious event happen for the nervous system to check out either, chronic lingering symptoms can do the same thing.
Every doctor that I saw told me it was anxiety and depression, along with post-partum and ptsd. It was certainly all of those things, BUT I wanted to know why/what happened in those moments that lead to me feeling broken for so long afterwards.
What happened felt like it was on such a deep level. I would explain it as heart breaking or soul crushing. I felt something so internally deep that it was into my core and I couldn’t find my way back to the surface.
I had enough medical backing to know all about what was technically happening and I had gone through loads of trauma in the past to various degrees but this was the first time I felt as though my entire system gave up and gave in…
I researched all the ways that I could get better or be better… I just wanted to be “normal” again. You know what I mean if you are here reading this blog likely. You have likely experienced something similar that you can but cannot describe all at the same time.
I knew what the doctor where telling me was true. I had serious (as in living a lot of my time crying in a closet so that my kids wouldn’t see) anxiety and depression. I knew I had ptsd and post-partum but honestly, telling me it over and over was not helping.
I even had one doctor tell me it was all in my head… Been there? Could there be anything worse to hear, like you were somehow doing this to yourself?
Even with my decade of education, I couldn’t justify being told that. I have a whole post that you can read on how the HPA axis works in communicating with mind/body that I encourage you to read when you are done this post. It will explain what “it is all in your head” actually means and NO, you are not making it up or creating it on purpose…
Related Content: HPA Axis Dysfunction and Symptoms
The nervous system is affected by so many variables.
You don’t have to have a one and done horrific event take place either.
- Your mom leaves home
- Sexually abused
- Chronic illness
- Toxic environment
There are countless ways that the nervous system can be affected by and some you may not even recognized until it is too late and your system is worn down.
Triggers directly affect the nervous system
We have heard of so many people continuing on the same patterns their entire adulthood. But why?
I feel that this is because we are actually attracted and also attract fundamental parts of our inner trauma.
We talk about trauma and triggers etc. One could spend forever going into why a person is the way that they are and how they got there. We make continual connections that tells a person you are the way that you are because this happened to you….
Not overly helpful and likely not something that you didn’t already know. Now, the person is left with the inability to believe in themselves and therefor develop a lack of trust in themselves.
So, where are we left off… Here are a few options that are available, there are many more but these can offer a good start. What works for you, may not work for someone else so trial and error is par the course when looking for what works well for you and that is absolutely ok!
Available Options That Can Help:
- Medication, talk therapy, cognitive therapy
- Neuro Feedback
- Tapping on various acupressure points on the body.
- Can last a long time and common for adult trauma. Eye movements that stimulate the brain (right/left).
- This can take many sessions. Changing the way that the brain thinks using biofeedback.
- Speaking and writing come from different sections of the brain and by writing things down we can begin to process what we then see.
Great book that can help understand what is going on:
Dr. Bessel van der Kolk says in one of his video lectures that more soldiers die when they return from war than they do at war. He deals with PTSD. Video of him speaking is a great watch as well!
Dr. Van der Kolk suggests finding words for trauma is not enough but rather to have real change it involves teaching the body that those things have past. You can find his book
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